I used to dread Valentine’s Day every year, especially if I wasn’t talking to or dating someone. I could sit here and psychoanalyze myself all day, but the main thing I realized was that I felt like being single meant I wasn’t good enough! Because I didn’t have a boyfriend to share a made-up holiday with… Yeah, typing that just made me cringe! Lol. But it’s the truth. It was embarrassing that everyone else seemed happy and in love while I was sad and alone! I put a lot of pressure on myself to do everything perfect (which is stupid), so finishing college without a serious boyfriend was a low blow! I thought those four years would bring me the love of my life, then we’d get married, and live happily ever after. Yeah RIGHT! I also realized something else soon after, though. I could blame the happy couples around me, The World, but the only person really making me feel inadequate was ME.
Another thing that I thought about was how different my life would be if I was in a serious relationship OR married right now. I bet you I wouldn’t be sitting here typing this, that’s for sure! The best thing about being single is FREEDOM. Freedom to do whatever I want, whenever I want. Freedom to chase my dreams without having to factor anyone in! I get to focus on becoming the absolute best version of myself, which is a work in progress. And like I’ve said many times before, I am nowhere close to being satisfied with where my blog is at. Yes, I’m happy with how far I’ve come, but there are so many more goals I want to accomplish!
After finally becoming content with myself, I stopped letting insignificant things like a fake holiday dictate my happiness and joy. The only person that can make you happy is YOU. Not your husband, fiancè, boyfriend, or “friendboy” (We’ve all been there lol) And if I’m being honest with myself, it’s a true blessing in disguise that past relationships didn’t last. The older I get, the more I believe that timing is everything. Do you know what truly blows my mind? The fact that our lives are already perfectly mapped out according to God’s Will for each of us. So basically, your future husband WILL BE your future husband, you just might not know who he is yet! But he will enter your life, down to the second, when he’s supposed to. How amazing is that?!
Ultimately, being single is NOT a bad label to have! In fact, it’s actually pretty amazing. It’s the only time in our lives where we have complete control and can be selfish! Don’t get me wrong, I’m so excited for the day when I’m married, but I don’t want to rush it. I don’t even think I’m personally ready for that anyway! Hot mess express over here! Haha. So until then, I’m going to enjoy the current season of my life! Oh, and I actually do love Valentine’s Day! Even if it is a made-up holiday 😉